I love you, but I Don’t Really Care About You…

What I can see now is, everyone is in it for themselves. No matter how truthful, how faithful, and how devoted a person may be to you, there is a strong possibility that they aren’t telling you about something that they do or did and they don’t want you to know about it. People are generally pretty selfish beings, and will represent the appearance that they are like such a good friend and will do anything for you, no matter what, but when It comes down to it, in a ton of different situations, it’s dog eat dog, every man in it for himself, survival of the fittest. It’s a sad and unfortunate truth, but that’s simply the way it really is. You and your friends go to a bar. Do you really have any idea of actually being with them in the bar once you walk in? When you walk in, you might stay together for a small amount of time, and then it’s off to the fucking races; “I want pussy!”; “I want to get fucked up!”; “I want to get laid!”; “I want to do that!” The other friend doesn’t come in to play anymore; the friend becomes a diminished priority in seconds. When we take an exam and receive the results back, we discuss with each other how we did on the exam, but whether the person next to you did bad or good, you don’t really give a fuck. What you really care about is YOUR grade and that is fucking it. If you think about it, the only reason we ask each other about how the other person did on an exam is because it may make us feel better temporarily, it may give us a moment of satisfaction. If they do well and you do well, it’s ok because you still did well so you’re pumped. If you did well and they did bad, that makes you feel smart as shit because you killed it and they didn’t, it makes you feel slightly better. If you did badly and they did badly, you can justify your poor grade and make yourself feel better by stating the fact in your head that everyone else did bad, so it’s not that big of a deal that I did too. In the end, it’s pretty irrelevant that everyone else did badly too, you still did poorly, and you will receive a poor grade because of it. What others got on an exam serves no relevance to you, which is proof that the interaction and discussion of test results is solely to make ourselves feel better inside for a slight period of time. This exam example is just a miniature model of how and why our comparisons with each other really come about in life. We want to feel better about ourselves, so we fucking compare ourselves to others. If someone is worse than you in anything, then power to you, you can fucking think in your head about how you are better than them for that so and so reason. Now you can fucking sleep better at night, Congratufuckinlations! People care about themselves way above any other for obvious reasons. We control our own fate entirely, we decide where we end up in life, and we decide if we are going to get pussy even. Whatever we desire to do or accomplish, it is up to us and only us to make it happen. When you think about this, it makes sense that people don’t really give a fuck about each other, why should they? It’s not this that I’m not ok with, it’s the fact that people are so fucking consumed with the like the: “I got you bro!” or like the “I only care about you, I’d do anything for you”. People need to fucking face the facts and acknowledge that we simply don’t’ really give a fuck about how each other’s’ lives are shaping out. All we care about is how our own lives are shaping out and how we can maximize our goals and dreams in our lives. This way, people would no longer become hurt or offended or whatever when their “friends” act a certain way. So in the end, all I really have to say is “Fuck you all, I’m hungry, and I just want to sleep”

THE END

H-U-M-A-N-S

Life is about doing what you want to do and making every moment worthwhile. If you’re living your life and doing something that you don’t want to do, then you’re simply wasting your life. We have roughly 75 years to experience life and do anything we set our mind to. Why would you want to be doing something in life that is displeasureable? Don’t be a conformist and follow would you think society wants you to do. Life is way too fucking precious to be doing things we don’t want to do. You could walk outside your door tomorrow and get shot in the head by a maniac with a gun; the possibilities of your sudden death are endless. My point is not to get hung up on all the crazy ways we could die tomorrow, my point is that with the ongoing chance that your life could end at any moment, there is simply no reason to be spending significant time and effort on things that we don’t find pleasurable or entertaining.

                As human beings, we are all anatomically the same. We are all equally evolved from past organisms with the privilege to be the rulers of earth. With this privilege comes the ability to do whatever we want with our lives. With this freedom to do anything, there is a certain amount of randomness that ultimately plays a part in how we all interact with each other and how society has formed the way it has since the dawn of human beings. It’s quite ridiculous to think about that humans who are a different color have been discriminated against since the interaction of two different colored humans took place. The difference in skin color is analogous to a white crayon and a black crayon. The crayons appear to be different, but in reality, they are composed of the exact same material and are nearly identical objects. It’s funny that something so obvious, so apparent could be so hard for human beings, the most intelligent life forms on this planet, to truly understand. Why is it that we find it so difficult to consider ourselves all as equals? Races and wealth classes are two things that are complete illusions. With race we have a term that defines the appearance of a human being. This term could be appropriate in our society if it was merely used as a descriptive tool for one’s appearance. Of course humans have to be malicious, heartless, blood-sucking vampires and insist on associating traits, abilities, and a status with individual race. But that’s what happened, there’s no way we can go back and change how humans and society developed, but there is potential for change and that is why it is so frustrating for me to attempt to understand why humans still view each other in this aspect of comparison. We are the fucking most intelligent life forms on the planet earth and we can’t fucking figure out that a human with skin that is darker than other human’s skin is literally the exact same life form. “Oh, but they are different, they run and shoot and steal and they do all of these crazy things.” Hmm, well first that would be generalizing because they don’t all do that, and second, maybe if they weren't enslaved for thousands of years, then maybe a portion of these people and their culture wouldn't be quite the way they are today. It’s pretty obvious that if white people were enslaved for thousands of years, they would be in the same exactly place that other suffering races are in today. Wake up everyone, you’re all fucking stupid and you need to open your fucking eyes and realize how moronic you all really are!

GOD BLESS YOU

Why do people continue to journey through life and persist with that blasphemous phrase, “God Bless You” ?Let’s talk about this for a moment or three so I can inform all y’all who don’t already know where and how exactly this saying, which is retorted after a fellow peer sneezes, emerged into our everyday lives. Well basically, here’s how it went down. So apparently, way back in day the common belief was that when a person sneezes, their heart stops for a moment. At the time, assuming you acknowledged this pseudoscience as factual, you would say a prayer in regards to the survival of whoever just sneezed/whoever’s heart just stopped!!! This ultimately led to the coined phrase, “God Bless You”. Obviously, as time went on, this idea of your heart stopping when you sneeze was eradicated from contemporary science and societal belief sets. When you think about it, for anyone today to recite that nonsense is pretty damn ignorant. It’s pretty damn clear that your heart doesn’t stop when you sneeze and that your life is in no way in danger during this period. For someone to continue to say “God Bless You” is like they are wearing a big sign that says “HEY! I’M NOT ALWAYS POLITE, BUT WHEN I AM, I SURE AM AN IDIOT” One might argue that it’s simply part of tradition that we continue to use this phrase. I would reply to that argument by saying that the tradition that they are referring to is one with outdated and exiled beliefs that serve no purpose in our society, besides making the masses sound ignorant and delusional. Just as the shape of the earth was updated from flat to spherical, almost every theory that was developed in our past has now been corrected. When will “God Bless You” be eliminated from our vocabularies, probably never… L

Why Am I Typing This?

Why does the world have to be revolved around what everyone is doing? Why can’t everyone just do? Why do we have to know what our peers are doing? Another living thing’s actions should hold no relevance to YOUR future actions. I’m writing right now because I thought that if I just start typing and don’t even think, that something innovative, creative, even revolutionary might just come out. College is supposed to be the years where you decide what you want to do for your career and basically who you want to be in the future. It is also said that college days should be the best days of your life. Now how is one to make such vast discoveries about their future self if they are drinking and smoking and in a sense rotting their brain for fucking 3 or 4 days a week? I’ll never truly understand a lot of things in life that may seem super obvious to others. The truth is that I’m not like anyone else in the world, I’m different… This is the idea that will drive me to new and great heights. It is my motivation, my driving force of constant work towards greatness. It allows me to believe that I hold the ability to surpass the many obstacles that others simply cannot. In my mind, if you are average and or like everyone else, then where does that leave you? Sure, you might be able to score girls, depending on how good you are at that sort of thing, but the undeniable fact is that if you are like everyone else, your potential for success is capped at the top of normality. Everyone has the potential to be great in something, the problem is that since everyone is so concerned with what everyone else is doing that we begin to copy each other and this is what enables this massive group of “average” and “normal” people to exist. So some of you are saying that you are like one of these normal people and you pull tons of girls and they love what you wear, how you act, and all of that stuff that has been adapted from others before you. Now think about this, if you believe girls like you for your conformist-self, then imagine how much they would admire and crave your ass if you were unique. That way, you are completely different than every other guy out there. That almost eliminates any competition that you once had. You are something special, something to hold on to, something different… Once one can escape the region of fear, then they can venture off and do anything they set their mind to. The problem is that our brains are wired so intensely to be concerned about ourselves, along with everyone else around us. This is what inhibits most to be a radical and escape what the general population considers “normal”. In most of our heads, there seems to be too much on the line to break out and go for it…

Drugs, the Brain, and Whatnot

                We feel a need to take a ride on a train to a distant but simultaneously near dimension. We reach this stage of euphoria. It allows us to escape from stress, pressure, and fears in our real life. We all deserve a chance to escape once and a while and drugs allow us to do this whenever we please. Now imagine how crazy are brain really is if we mess with it a little bit and we fuckin freak out like a bunch of wacko’s. If only we could tamper into the true potential of our brain, the amount we could move forward is immense. It’s pretty crazy that we could have been around this long and know so much about everything around us and in us, and we know so little about the brain; arguably the most vital component to our existence.

                Our brain is fucking powerful; it can make us sad, it can make us happy, it can make us horny, etc. If you were to put all of your brain power into feeling a certain way, I truly believe that you could maintain this state of emotion for the majority of your life. When it comes down to it, a person becomes upset because there brain tells them to be upset. If my close family member died tomorrow, and I put all of my power to be calm and chill and happy as shit, I think I could avoid the period of sorrow for my lost loved one. It seems as if it’s just a big game in our head. I truthfully believe that we feel all the different ways we feel because we tell ourselves to feel these ways. Just look at animals for example. These parents literally just let their newly born children just wonder off into the wilderness all on their lonesome. We are no fucking different than animals. If humans wanted to, we could eliminate our emotional attachment to others. It comes down to us having so much leisure time to think and reflect about all these different things and people in our lives. In a world where we don’t have this period of reflection in our everyday life, we would have the ability to stare death in the eye with an ordinary, accepting manner.

                Being high on marijuana enhances the senses. People believe weed simply makes food taste better, makes activities more fun, and makes sexual relations more pleasurable. What I have come to realize is that weed simply enhances the senses. Our most pleasurable actions in my opinion are having sex, eating food, and engaging in activities that get our mind racing or our adrenaline pumping. Now when I say weed enhances the senses, I mean it FUCKING INTENSIFIES the senses. Sex is the greatest physical pleasure we can experience. You take that pleasure and you multiply it by 10, you’re clearly going to have more enjoyable pleasure. Now look at food; you eat food all day, every day. We are animals, we need it to move, function, and overall survive. Without food, we will melt away and die off, which means that it will definitely be an enjoyable experience when we consume food. Now take the euphoric experience you receive from eating food and multiply like 10. You now have an even greater experience than what you already had, which when you think about it, is pretty fucking crazy. Your senses and experiences just move so fast and process so quickly that sometimes it’s hard to fully appreciate what is really going on in your mind and body. Weed slows down the process, and enables you to access your brain in a completely different way. You slow down the process of eating food for example. Instead of just devouring down a steak and being like, “O, that was pretty good”, you put the process into slow motion and you truly then get to experience one the greatest sensations that can be experienced by a human being.